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Struggle To Find Yourself

Myself

 

by Edgar Guest

I have to live with myself, and so,
I want to be fit for myself to know;
I want to be able as days go by,
Always to look myself straight in the eye;
I don’t want to stand with the setting sun
And hate myself for the things I’ve done.
I don’t want to keep on a closet shelf
A lot of secrets about myself,
And fool myself as I come and go
Into thinking that nobody else will know
The kind of man I really am;
I don’t want to dress myself up in sham.
I want to deserve all men’s respect;
But here in this struggle for fame and pelf,
I want to be able to like myself.
I don’t want to think as I come and go
That I’m for bluster and bluff and empty show.
I never can hide myself from me,
I see what others may never see,
I know what others may never know,
I never can fool myself — and so,
Whatever happens, I want to be
Self-respecting and conscience free.

Definition of “Pelf” – Money, Riches

Example of using pelf –  “a politician who seems more interested in pelf than in policy”

Once we resolve this issue with ourselves we attain true freedom. Edgar said in the one line, “I want to deserve all men’s respect;”. This is my goal, not for everyone to like me, but to command respect of my fellow man by my actions.

For to have someone like me I must play to their emotions. Which will change depending on so many factors in our daily lives. The weather, amount of sleep, hunger, stuffed, a death in their family, bad grades, stuck in traffic… The list is endless of the things that will effect another’s mood. I have no control over these events in another’s life. Not to trivialize my behavior, but the person I am trying to get to like me may have had some tragic event happen and I do some little thing and they seem to be blowing it way out of proportion. Then I am put in a bad mood. Questioning my self worth.

I hold myself to a set of standards that I can look in the mirror and say to myself ” I did the best I could today and that is enough”,  Then I will have the respect of everyone. Even the ones who do not like me or agree with me.

This every man can achieve.  Regardless of where he finds himself. He can stand in full view of everyone with nothing to hide.

“I see what others may never see,
I know what others may never know”

These things are ready to let others see, the price they pay to see is their present pain, which their view of this part of my life will ease their pain and give them the strength to stand strong and continue on.

You Decide

You’re the person who has to decide

whether you’ll do it, or toss it aside.

You’re the person who makes up your mind

whether you’ll lead, or will linger behind.

Whether you’ll try for the goal that’s afar,

or just be contented to stay where you are.

         -Edgar Quest 1881-1959-

We are taught from the start that outside circumstances control our outcomes in life. To keep us from the feelings of failure, they taught us to be grateful for what you have or where you are. This is true. It is the way that it was presented to us. They would usually pick some person in a third world country. This person would be starving, thirsty, dying from some disease, or in slavery. Another persons pain never gave me any gratitude for my present circumstance. Today I know they meant well.

I would feel empathy for the other person, not gratitude. What a confusing time in my life. To know the truth, yet the adults in my life where teaching me something I knew was not true.

We were also taught some people were meant to be poor and some were meant to be rich and God picked who they were. So if you are poor it is meant to be and God loves the poor person more then the rich. Some even went so far as to say that the rich were evil. This I new was also a lie.

After years of being indoctrinated into this way of looking at life, when I became an adult I continued in this confusion. I just fought the thoughts. Finally, I started to put new thoughts into my mind. This needed to be done repeatedly, to push it into my subconscious mind. Over time the new way of thinking has changed my life.

I am always retraining my mind, that is why I brought you this poem today. This poem is the way I choose to think. I am in control of my thoughts and actions. If I am in control of my thoughts, I am in control of my destiny. This I am grateful for, but I will strive for more today. Because I can not maintain an attitude of gratitude on yesterdays accomplishments.

The best way to learn something is to teach it.

My Religion by Dale Wimbrow

Dale Wimbrow also wrote the poem “The Man In The Glass”

My Religion

by Dale Wimbrow

MY CHURCH, AND MY CREED

Now what if I say I have None?
You’ll be wrongly impressed,
And unduly distressed
So wait – I have only begun.
 
My creed in the sense that you mean it,
Has no single symbol, or sign.
Big, impressive, or small,
There is good in them all,
So perhaps Your religion is mine.

My doctrine is any that stands for
The honor and virtue of men.
For whatever we preach,
We’re all striving to reach
A mutual goal in the end.

My church is the one that is nearest
Wherever I happen to be.
The place where men go
Their devotion to show,
Is good – and sufficient for me.

What matters the Name on the mileposts
That stand by the path you have trod?
If the pathway leads UP
Then at last you shall sup
With the infinite army of God.

As A Man Thinketh – Poem by James Allen

As A Man Thinketh

You will be what you “will” to be;
Let failure find its false content
In that poor word, “environment”,
But spirit scorns it, and is free.

It masters time, it conquers space;
It cowes that boastful trickster, Chance,
And bids the tyrant Circumstance
To uncrown, and fill a servant’s place.
The human will, that force unseen,

The offspring of a deathless Soul,
Can hew a way to any goal,
Though walls of graite intervene.

Be not impatient in delay
But wait as one who understands;
When spirit rises and commands
Then God is ready to obey.

James Allen

In the first verse James tells us “we will be, what we will to be”. This tells me that what ever I focus on, I will become. Next he says that we find a false sense of comfort in blaming my environment for my failures. The economy is bad, things are tough all over, look where I live, I have no education, whatever your excuse if you use them you will fail. But the spirit in me shakes these excuses and is free to build the life I want to live.

The second verse tells us “The will to be” controls our future. Taking away the power from the words luck and chance. When we use this “I would like to do this, but I can not because… Because is the introduction to our circumstance. An Circumstance is our king. Our “Will” turns our surroundings/circumstance, into our servant not our king.

The third verse tells us that our soul empowers our human will. Not inanimate objects or what others do or think of us. I read about a lady in the early 1950’s decided to publish a magazine and she took it to a readership of 250.000. That in itself is a feat for a woman at that time. To make her story more amazing is she did this while she was paralyzed from the neck down. No computers or talk to text software. Where there is a will, there is a way.

The fourth verse tells us that “you will reap what you sow.” Do not get impatient. Focus you will and start to plant the seeds that will grow your goal. Just like you plant a kernel of corn in the ground and you give it a season to grow to maturity. It is the same with your goal. With goals we do not know how long the season of growth is, so be patient. If you live this poem, God will bless your seeds with a bountiful crop to harvest.

Follow Your Heart MP3

Follow Your Heart

Here is a song Follow Your Heart that has helped me stick to my dreams. Very simple lyrics on your heart speaking loud enough for you to hear it and knowing the difference between defiance and your true path.

The song  Follow Your Heart was written by Steve Black. I have the CD for about 15 years. I could not find a You Tube clip to put here. You can listen to the audio and follow the words.


Album – Time Passes
Follow Your Heart by Steve Black


Momma said son too young to get married
Too young to get married
Wouldn’t you know I didn’t listen to my momma
Now I’m still married
Was 25 years ago

Now I ain’t saying
Don’t you listen to your momma
Better listen to your momma
Most times she knows

But there comes a time when your heart talks louder
Gotta follow that heart where ever it goes

Poppa said son put down the hammer
Go back to college
Wouldn’t you know
I didn’t listen to my poppa
Still got the hammer
Me and the hammer built the life I know

Now I ain’t saying
Don’t listen to your poppa
Better listen to your poppa
Most times he knows

But there comes a time when your heart talks louder
Gotta follow that heart whenever it goes

Devil said son put down the fiddle
can’t play the fiddle
Your hand is broke
I didn’t listen to the devil
Still got the fiddle
I fiddle all night
And the devil can choke

Now I’m telling you straight, don’t you listen to the devil
Don’t you listen to the devil
He’ll steal your soul

Well If you listen to your heart and you know I’m right
You can follow that heart where ever it goes

Now the good lord said, don’t you worry about the money
course I worried that money right off my door
Still I worried myself until myself got sick
And I didn’t get better until I listened to the lord

Now all I’m saying is listen to your heart
Really listen to your heart
It knows what’s right

Well it’s the moments easy and the following’s hard
Gotta follow that heart through the darkest night

Follow Your Heart

Follow Your Heart – It is yours, so it should be the one you follow.

Good affirmation in the form of a song. Go out and follow your heart where ever it goes. Follow your heart, it is your heart, not someone else’s heart. They should not want you to follow their heart’s desire.

Living the way I want, doing what I want is not selfish. Wanting others to live the way I want is selfish.

Right now is the time to start to follow your heart. See you on the road to your heart’s desire.

 

The Man In The Glass

In the early days of this journey, there were different people who I would sit with and listen to their stories. Ed was one. He used to say “I have mirrors all over the house. Just so I can look at myself when I walk by. There was a time when other than to shave, I could not”. My thought was “what an egotistical man”.

Actively changing my mental diet, I would say to myself “There is something you are missing here. This man used to be where you where. Ed has not been there in a long time. What could Ed possibly be saying?” The conversations I would have would always come to the conclusion. Ed is full of himself. Saying to myself, “Lefty, you need to figure out what he means. He is happy and content with himself”.  

So I would look into my mirror, trying to see what he saw. Sure enough, the only thing I could do was brush my teeth and comb my hair. Any longer was unbearable. There was an overwhelming sense of quilt, that I seen in the mirror.

Then one day, the poem “The Man In The Glass” came across my path. This became a mainstay of my mental diet. If you have never heard this poem, here it is. It will at least make you think, Hopefully it will get you to go to a mirror and look yourself straight in the eye. 

If you have made the life changing decision to go to the mirror, take a pencil and tablet with you. Then look into the mirror and gaze into your eyes. Keep looking, as long as you can. Write down what happens. Who’s image came to mind, first, second… Do not edit what you write down. Honesty counts here. What events of your past come to mind. 

If nothing comes up. You are where I was. I just could not look at myself. I kept talking to these men and going back to the mirror. Do not give up. Today I can gaze into my eyes without my skin crawling. 

The Man In The Glass 

Peter “Dale” Winbrow Sr

 

When you get what you want in your struggle for self
And the world makes you king for a day,
Just go to the mirror and look at yourself
And see what that man has to say.

For it isn’t your father or mother or wife
Whose judgment upon you must pass.
The fellow whose verdict counts most in you life
Is the one staring back from the glass.

You may be like Jack Horner and chisel a plum
And think you’re a wonderful guy.
But the man in the glass says you’re only a bum
If you can’t look him straight in the eye.

He’s the fellow to please-never mind all the rest,
For he’s with you clear to the end.
And you’ve passed your most dangerous, difficult test
If the man in the glass is your friend.

You may fool the whole world down the pathway of years
And get pats on the back as you pass.
But your final reward will be heartache and tears
If you’ve cheated the man in the glass.

Keep telling yourself. If it happened for them, it can happen for me to.